Can we talk about social media?

These days, social media isn’t just about posting a picture here and there of your finished piece. You have to remember to turn the camera on, make videos, during and after, while you’re creating, editing it, adding music, adding tags, and adding a smile on your face because you must be in it! 

That brings up another thought: why do I have to be so personal? Why is it so important for people to know who I am, things about my life, and to know what I look like! I can only speak for myself. . .  being a full-time Artist doesn’t mean I get up, do my hair or even put my makeup on or put on nice clothes! Quite the contrary, my friends! I hardly ever brush my hair. I haven’t put makeup on in who knows how long? And I pretty much wear the same sweatshirt because it has paint all over it, and it is soooooo comfortable.

***Sidenote: pretty much everything I own has paint on it.

This makes my already full-time job not my only full-time job. Yes, I can hire somebody, but again, I’m an artist, people. I don’t make enough money to have employees. I don’t even know if that’s an actual dream to have. Is it? 

Until then, it’s just me, myself, and I. I never signed up to be a photographer, a videographer, an editor, or even to look good all the time. But this is the way the world is now, you’re always on display. 

They’re telling me it has nothing to do with my actual work. People want to get to know YOU, have a connection. I guess in a way that’s what this blog is, me putting myself out there so you can get to know ME. I'm trying ;)

I would like to start a Vlog, put it up on YouTube, but every day I talk myself out of it for one reason or another. Mostly, I just don’t want to comb my hair or put my makeup on, to only do something for an hour or less, and then end up all dressed up with nowhere to go.

I’m pretty sure my dog doesn’t care what I look like. He’s just happy I’m home all the time. Isn’t that right, My Boy?

My boy, Shadow, giving me the side eye

Not really complaining, just venting. Is it the same thing? I hope not! I want to make sense of it in my head, that way, I can feel more comfortable with it and want to do it.

I’m not young anymore lol I only have enough energy to do so many things in a day. I don’t seem to be open to everything as much as I used to. I feel the urge to fight it. But who is that hurting? You guessed it, just me.

I have been posting more pictures of myself and creating some reels, as I'd like to get more consistent again. I keep forgetting to turn that camera on! Ugh!!!  But I did start this blog! who knows, maybe I’ll start building on that. I gotta start somewhere.

    Here is a picture of my friend Nima and me. She did my make-up, and I felt so pretty. I asked her to move in with me and make me pretty every day. Unfortunately, she can't.

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